I fell in love with an aussie..

As the title written, yea..i met this guy in yahoo chat room. I was shocked by his swearing, n i was like 'what a first impression??' I never know aussies are the worst swearing nation in the world, i thought americans took the title. Anyways, as others' comment about me, being frank and honest, I really touched this guy's heart. His name is Deniel. He told me that, and he thinks he likes me. I didn't feel anything at first, but i started to feel something when i can feel like i was appreciated by this guy. I never care if someone doesn't give a shit about me, but he did. He did give a shit about me, he did really care. So he caught my attention, even at first i didn't give a shit about how good he looks. But as soon after i realized he cares about me, I did pay attention to him, i found myself attracted to him. But i don't want to put so much hopes..it is too good to be true. There's nothing such as dreams come true. No such thing.

New update of myself..

Yea..i didn't remember the last time i even cared to write in this blog. So this is the update by the way, gosh, many things had happened already, i don't know where to start. But hey, I gone through shits and kind of feel lucky that i'm still here to tell the stories. Ok..for the beginning, i'll make an outline so that it'll be easier. In this post, people will notice many swearing words, there's a story behind it too. Cool eh? Everything happens for a reason, now that saying really applies. It is a bit messy in my head right now, to be honest, i did imagine myself committing suicide. It's not really what i want to, but u know, when you are so depressed and there were nobody around you that you can share the pain with, sometimes it will be an imaginary solution that just popped in your head.

Shit #1: I had a bf, which has a gf. Feeling unsecured, i create another relationship that i thought was secure, until i found out he lied to me big time, he also has a gf before he met me,
and they have been together for 5 years. So we broke up, i ended up alone.

Shit #2: I got no friends, as my friends are all graduated. I'm living in an all-non muslim
housemates, with me as the only malay and muslim in it.

Shit #3: Financial and studies problem.

I hate everything about him..

It's my first ex..I just never thought he will be the most despicable guy i ever met in my life. We broke up like 6-7 years ago. And then in 2007, he came back to me, talking bout the old times and made me think that he wants me back. He is so despicable that he intended to play with my heart, as he has become a such a playboy now. Well, he thinks that I can be his doormat..but he can only dream about that. I found out that he already has a steady gf, but he still spending nights with girls just to have fun. What type of guy is that??? He is just so pathetic..I wish he died from a disease or something..God, I never wish to be this mean..but he has just crossed over the line.

I asked him to stop contacting me, and stop all the nonsense he created..or intended to do. I dont feel any regrets about this. At first, when I found out..my tears were about to burst. I am so mad at him, when my tears were about to fall down..I suddenly think that he is worthless to cry over. Now, I'm forgetting him..even the existence of him in my life. Even my hatred towards him. I want to forget everything about him.